I don't know la huh! Okay, I really don't. I have spent approximately an hour on the MOE website, checking out JCs, and I can't seem to find anything about Polytechnic. However, I still have no idea what to do with my future. My mom just gave me a lecture on how I should go for something stable instead of following my passion. After TP's open house, I am definite that I am not taking Engineering, I just don't have a thing for it la. The School of Design was colourful and I don't know, made it seem like, a really happy place? Business, maybe. Argh, don't know la.

On a lighter note, I'm on a super strict diet now. So if you see me eating something HEAVY during recess, you are allowed to steal my food. Please, and ThankYouVeryMuch. My mom got me a shirt on size smaller than my normal shirt size to motivate me to lost weight. And I can't afford to say I don't care, because it's a Little Miss Naughty shirt which costs a whopping $43. And yeah, you figured, I went shopping, and I couldn't believe I was actually shopping. Because, number one, my New Year Resolution was not to shop till the holidays, number two being the fact that I actually found time. Anyway, the whole purpose of going to town was because of my dying iPod, but no worries, it's undergoing operation now. He/She will be discharged on Thursday. But my mother and I couldn't resist! Whoooops! :D

Open House at TP yesterday, was tiring. The campus was so huge, that by the time you leave the cafeteria/canteen to your school/LT, you'd say, "Let's go back to the cafeteria/canteen, I'm hungry again." Okay, LAMEEEEE. But I hope you get my point, the campus is HUGE. The worse part was, we were carrying a week worth of homework on our bags, and plus we had a goodie bag. Basically we looked like Karang Gunis. And Maxine was stuffing her goodie bag with some of her books, and when the lecturer said, "Inside your goodie bag, you will see {Pause}" and I whispered to Maxine during the pause, "Maxine's books." Okay, LAMEEEEE. Did I mention it was super duper hot? Erghhhh, the heat and the load just killed us.

Camp CORRI's on monday, hope everything goes well for the facilitators. It will be stressful, so God Bless All of Us.

RAHHHHHH.

I've been thinking, a lot. Okay, maybe it isn't exactly the time to think so much, because I know I should be spending more time concentrating on my studies, but anyhow, I still have to think. Thinking has been somewhat part of my life. Gee. Fantasizing, thinking wisely, I don't know.

I've been thinking of what to do with my life after O'Levels, cause somewhat I feel like I'm going on with school life aimlessly. I don't even exactly know what Junior College to go to. I want to do so many things, acting, radio, fashion designing, I don't know. But hey, it seems like what I want to do, may not be what I can do next time. I mean, what makes me think that I'm oh-so great in acting, that I will easily get a job in Showbiz? Nothing. As for fashion, like what they say in Project Runway, "In fashion, one day you're in, and they next day, you're out." So then again, what makes me think I'll always be in? Nothing again. You see, nothing is confirmed in life. I mean, imagine life, with everything so planned, so sure of what will happen, it will be a real bore. So back to my point, I want to get to Junior College, where I can carry on holding onto my dreams, at the same time, have something to fall back on when everything fails. But what my mom suggests, I take something that gives me more assurance, but what gives me assurance contains 0% passion. So what now? I'm thinking that if I'm really passionate about it, I still may not get it. I mean, it needs effort and faith too, doesn't it? Sheesh.

Another thing that I've been thinking of is Inner Peace. I heard those words from someone, and it began bothering me if I have Inner Peace. "Inner Peace is a feeling that comes from the heart. It is knowing that no matter what happens in life, you can handle it and maintain a happy and peaceful mind. It comes from knowing that you are never alone, and that there is a power greater than you; A power that you can tap on anytime, and receive the help and guidance you need." I doubt I have Inner Peace yet, but I will, someday.

The last thing I have been thinking of is how, I've been friends with you, when I know nothing that's going on. It's as if, we're friends and yet we know nothing at all about each other. Even myself, I realise how I have been keeping truckloads of things from you, and I can't seem to figure out why. Whenever I think that one day, you might leave for somewhere, and say, "Don't worry, Anne. I will remember you for life." And then as the years go by, not an email, not a letter, not a postcard. And I realise how you have forgotten me. I don't know if I might be expecting it, or actually not wanting that day to come. But I might actually go through those days pretty well, because I might actually be going through it now. Honestly, I think I'm closer to so many people, that I probably just got close to recently, than I am to you.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I watched "The Arena" and it was rather amusing. But seriously, do good looks matter? And just now, we were on the Weight Issue, and I thought, a person's weight doesn't matter. It's just numbers, with a unit at the back. What matters, is how you look with you weight. I mean, when you go to the mall, or simply walk the road, no one actually asks you what's your weight right? They simply judge you with how they see you. So what's with the Weight Issue? So if you're dieting for GradNight, don't bother checking if you have lost weight by taking you weight every month. Look at yourself in the mirror, and ask yourself, if you have lost weight. HAHA.

Alright, Ciao.

.I might actually really be allergic to school.

I developed a fever at about 4.40a.m. I felt so terrible, as if my nose was about to come off my face any moment. My nose was running like a tap, and I would want it to stop, but it would be blocked, and then I can't breathe. It was awful. I can't believe I'm absent on the third day of school.

I almost wanted to go back to school for Orientation, because I know how chaotic, how fun, how crazy people will get. But noooooooo, my Mom would not allow me to because she was worried about how I would faint again, like I did last year. But, it was more of like a blackout. Haha, I remember how Michelle panicked.

School's been stressful lately, because of the endless reminders that we are taking our O'Levels this year. Gee, O'Levels are really some big deal huh? But I have this horrible horrible feeling that I would get 19 for my L1R5, and I would not want that, would I? I better get focused, and stop thinking of Getaways, where to go for holidays, and what to shop for. I should stop letting my mind run for stupid reasons, and really get to work.

Anyway, Secondary Two Camp CORRI's around the corner, and I must say, I'm pretty excited about it. Just reading the proposals, and planning, and timelines, make me so excited. It's going to be fun, at least I think so. And it beats going to Temasek Polytechnic for some workshop. But Secondary Two Camp CORRI would definitely be much more tiring, and stressful.

But, thinking about how this year would go about and all that jazz, it's going to be tough. School's tough, but you're tougher. I will have the last laugh. I hope friendships last through this stressful, quick year. I always thought of how people should never have friends, since friends come and go. But hey, everyone needs a friend, and it's our responsibility to keep it going. See what I mean, by I should stop my mind from running.

Ciao.

I'm alergic to school.

I've been sneezing, and sniffing my day through. I was almost absent for school today, but something just wanted me to go. School's been pressurizing, all they ever talk about is O Levels, target setting, JC's and Polytechnics. BOOOOO.

Ciao, off to do some work.

Life just has that much DRAMA.

It's the first day of Secondary Four, of which I barely experienced, because of the Secondary One Orientation. Fun, but extremely tiring. Imagine, walking around the school, for 2 hours, and then shouting and screaming cheers to entertain them? Sheesh, imagine Secondary Two Camp CORRI. But it beats Secondary Four Camp, anytime! :D We were only able to get back to class at say, bout 1.30pm? So anyway, I'm seating right in front because I only got back at 1.30. Hopefully, this will help me academically.

Ack, nothing much.

I'm hoping you know the reason.

2007, baby!

New Year Resolutions:

1. Lose weight for Graduation Night.
2. Do facial every weekend.
3. Shop only during the holidays. Shut up, I know it's close to impossible if you see the next list below. Holidays include public holidays.
4. Save Money.
5. Study hard and smart to get below 12 points for O'Levels.
6. Cope well with the last 6 months with council work.
7. Do not complain, just accept, unless I feel a sense of injustice.

2007 Shopping List:

1. Assessment Books.
2. Dress for GradNight, Granny might be unable to make one.
3. Shoes for GradNight.
4. Cargo Three-quarters.
5. Faded Denim Shorts.
6. Hoodieeeeeeeeees! :D
7. Ticket to a lovely getaway after O'Levels. America again, baby! (:
8. Tops, with scribbles/design.
9. Plain tops.
10. Flats.
11. Tote Bag.
12. Nike Backback.
13. Crumpler.
14. A Tiny CareBear.

Okay, I'll leave it to that for now.

Have a good year ahead, everyone. Remember your resolutions!